Day Twenty-Four

I feel quiet today - I look forward to taking time today and going within. I think I may have strayed off the path a bit, because I am drawing a blank about where I'm at re. this journey. Guess that can happen - huh? A daily practice can be challenging.

But one thing that is sustaining me right now is catching myself and being thankful for the moment - right now. It keeps me coming back to the 'right now' and then I remember one of my intentions for this journey...to ask myself: "Right now, am I choosing to live in Love or Fear?"

xoxo

Day Twenty-Three

Not much to say today...but I'm still here. On my journey. I've heard a little rumor that there may be a gathering on May 2 of all the Boulder people who are on this journey. Unfortunately, I'll be in California (I'm glad I'll be there, but sorry to miss it.) I'll find out more details and write more when I know more...

xoxo

Day Twenty-Two

So, I want to continue today on a topic that got broached yesterday...here's a small quote from the Joseph Campbell article:

"Imagine one day you find yourself drinking wine or beer at a friend’s wedding or birthday, and the next day you find yourself directly responsible not only for the lives of the people you love but for the future of the entire world."

And this leads me to a subject that I find especially inspiring and heart opening. As we have been working on shifting our own personal consciousness, within the context of a larger group, so can we now join an even larger group and join other voices around the world in a worldwide prayer vigil focused on shifting the planetary consciousness. It's time.

On April 6th at 12 PM Eastern (10:00am Mountain) hundreds of thousands of people around the world will focus the Moses Code vibration onto the Old City of Jerusalem, what we are calling a "virtual hug" of the Old City, to help awaken its Divine Destiny as the City of Peace. There are two ways that you can participate.

Chant the Moses Code for the hour, and feel the energy of hundreds of thousands of others who are doing the same. In this way we will use the most powerful manifestation tool in history to not only awaken the destiny of Jerusalem, but your personal destiny as well.

To read more about this vigil, click HERE.

I'm definitely planning on spending my time Sunday morning sitting in this space of possibility and healing.

“Can a small group of thoughtful people change the world? Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has.”
~ Margaret Mead

Day Twenty-One

Moses the Orphan:

I am intrigued by this recurring archetypal theme - think Vasalisa, Cinderella, Harry Potter, Moses - and how it applies to those of us on this journey. How many of us feel like we are orphans or that we do not 'belong' to our birth families? Separated from my father for much of my life and raised by a mother that I didn't feel a kinship towards, I have felt like an orphan, a misfit, for many years and have striven to create my own family - a soul family. (Personally, I always secretly hoped I was the love child of my father and Joni Mitchell, but alas, I don't think that's true...)

Here's an article that summarizes what Joseph Campbell has to say about Moses and the orphan theme: to read more, click HERE.
(it's long but I really thought it was interesting...especially the last sentence!)

"A common theme in hero stories is the idea of a childhood spent in obscurity (“an infant exile and return,” in the words of Campbell). The prince and princess, the hero with miraculous powers, and protagonist of many a story spend their childhood unknown to the outside world, and often unaware of their own heritage.

Moses, of course, is an excellent example of this. In Exodus 2, Moses’ Hebrew mother sends the infant Moses down the river in a basket in order to save his life. Moses is taken from the river by the daughter of the Pharaoh and raised as an Egyptian prince.

Unbeknownst to him and most of the Egyptians, he is the same race as the Egyptian Hebrew slaves. When he finally makes this discovery, he exiles himself into another country to try and live out the life of a shepherd. God calls him back to fulfill his destiny: Lead the people of Israel out of oppression.

Think also of Cinderella. Or Oliver Twist (or just about all the Dickens’ stories, where the protagonist doesn’t discover his parental heritage – and the wealth it brings – until the final chapters).

In our own time, we have Little Orphan Annie and, even more contemporary, The Princess Diaries and Harry Potter which tell the same story. In fact, the idea that we are in the “wrong family” and must have been switched at birth (preferably with a royal family or a family with special powers) is a childhood fantasy shared by most of us.

And so the story of Luke Skywalker strikes a chord with all boys (and girls) who, like Luke, dream of being shown magic powers they didn’t know they had, of traveling the stars, and of having great adventures.

The infant Jesus is in the same predicament in Mt: 2. An angel tells Joseph in a dream that the family must flee to Egypt in order to hide the baby from Herod. Herod is searching for the baby for the same reasons that Darth Vader and the Emperor are interested in the Skywalkers: He is afraid of the baby and its power.

Even when Herod dies, Joseph is afraid to return to Israel. He is again told in a dream to go to the district of Galilee (Mt 2:22). There, like Luke, the holy family leads a quiet life in a small fishing town. Jesus lives in such obscurity there that we do not hear about him again until he is thirty years old.

Again, we have the case of the reluctant hero when Luke (and Moses) first refuses the call of destiny. Campbell writes, “The myths and folk tales of the whole world make clear that the refusal is essentially a refusal to give up what one takes to be one’s own interest.” (self)

We are not given any information about how Jesus responded to his “call” at the age of thirty, but he, too, must have struggled with his vocation. Certainly his life up until them must have been much like Frodo’s and Luke’s: a quiet life spent working and playing among family and friends he had known since childhood. The politics of the bigger cities – Jerusalem, Minas Tirith, the Death Star – are far from these hero’s homes and their minds. Suddenly, they find themselves thrust into vocations that demand that they deal with many more types of people than they are used to, some of whom want to see them dead.

Imagine one day you find yourself drinking wine or beer at a friend’s wedding or birthday, and the next day you find yourself directly responsible not only for the lives of the people you love but for the future of the entire world.

No wonder Jesus went into the desert for forty days before he undertook his mission."

And we are all on our 40 day journey - before we take on our personal mission - whatever that may be, if anything... Tomorrow, I am going to continue talking about this concept of the death of self (slaying of the ego) and our responsibility for the people we love and for the future of the entire world! Stay tuned :) xoxo

Day Twenty

Final Stage: Integration

"You bring insight to bear on the contradictions that have caused you to lose contact with grace, you apply spiritual insights to the nitty-gritty actions of your life, and you experience the ripening of your breakthroughs over time."

Finally! The good stuff!!! Hope you guys are having some breakthroughs :) xoxo

Day Nineteen

Stage 6: Fall From Grace

"You lose touch with the new gifts and experience the consequences of overconfidence and a sense of dryness or loss of contact with your Source."

Well...this can happen. It's happened to me. Anytime I lose contact with Source, I can spin out of orbit. There is a quote that keeps echoing in my head today: Am I acting out of Love or Fear? Earlier this morning, I was wracked with fear, and I felt jittery and ungrounded. After I sat (literally made myself get still) and speak the fear out loud, and have a cry, I felt re-connected to Source, and immediately more peaceful.

I am having a lot (a lot) of young, childhood pain come up for me on this journey - pain I believe I have dissociated from for over 35 years - and it is quite painful/shameful to experience in the moment. But I hope I can remember that there is always more internal calm once I let it out.

Sometimes I think I am fearful and jittery when I am avoiding the old pain. On a nervous system level, it feels 'wrong' to go to that painful place (an old, old belief.) I have to stop and keep reminding my 43 year old self that I am strong enough, well enough, to face the old pain. I am grateful for this "housecleaning" opportunity!!! It is a blessing.

Blessings to you - and happy baby boy to Aiyana and Thomas!!! What wonderful news!

Day Eighteen

Stage Five: Honeymoon

"Enjoying the new situation, you live in the breakthrough. It may feel somewhat like being in love."

I think there is a negative connotation to the word 'honeymoon' - implying that it is temporary and even possibly false. The breakthrough (or insight) is definitely real and, regardless of the time span, a wonderful period that I can use to meditate on, absorb, and integrate. True, all things change - that is the constant of life - so this "honeymoon" period is a powerful time - one that I can make conscious with my gratitude.

I would like to change the name of this stage to "Grateful Contemplation" - the stage that comes after "Grace, Insight, and Awakening." But that's just me :)

xoxo